Appreciating every moment I have with you. 

Adulting

Had a HTHT conversation with my sister the other day on skype and it broke my heart to see her cry. She had a dilemma about the job she was already offered back at home and another one in Japan. She doesn't want to leave my parents but she feels the pay will be able to help us in the future. Long story short, we did a breakdown of the pay she was offered from both places and I can't help but to think of mine as well. See, the difference about working in your home country is that, you do not have to set aside cash for your house unless of course you're married with your own property.

But if you work abroad, you'll have to set aside for housing which takes up a huuuuge portion of your pay and you're just renting it. Mind you, it's almost half of the pay I'm going to get when I do my pre-reg here inshaa Allah. Unlike her, I do not have a choice. I have to complete my pre-reg here before going back home. I honestly don't care even though some would say that I am being ahead of myself. Planning for something that will only take place in about 2 years inshaa Allah but hey, it's better to be prepared right?

May Allah make it easy for us to transition from students to adults inshaa Allah.

Thank you.

Be grateful for 

whoever comes,

because each has been

sent as a guide from

beyond.

Rumi

Sometimes I question your existence in my life.

Maybe you came at a time where I didn't know how to be grateful. 

Maybe you came because I didn't remember Him enough. 

Maybe you came because I was greedy. 

Maybe...

I'll learn something from this. 

Whatever it is, thank you.

For I am now trying to be at peace. 

Thank you, for teaching me to put myself first before everyone else.

Thank you, for teaching me to be independent.

Thank you for making me emotionally and mentally strong.

If these are the reasons you're here, 

Thank you.

One can never say thank you enough.

Yet another post after a long hiatus.

Semester 1 had officially ended a week ago with exams out of the way too. I'm still getting panic attacks and blanked out every now and then but I've learnt to cope with it. I hope so. The worse feeling is not knowing how you did but tawakkal. You've worked hard for it and did your best so leave it all to Allah. 

Semester 2 in two weeks time but first! let's enjoy this little bit of freedom before all the interviews and literature review comes. And oh, looks like we'll have an extra year in the UK after graduation after all. Bismillah!

This is totally not related to the post but hey, I'd like you to admire my ribbon, my trademark. Til next time.

Shik's adventure in the kitchen!

Ignore the mess but soo proud of my masterpiece. Needs some green stuff to make it pretty but that's about it. Ayam masak merah in Aberdeen! 

Okay now back to revision. 

Inverness has been awesome Alhamdulillah! Although I barely did anything, I consider it as my break before the hectic year begins. Saw the timetable and got into a panic attack mode in return. The craziness awaits yet here I am taking my own sweet time. 

Made friends with the cleaning lady since I've been here. Fun fact, her son was born in Singapore in '75. She was there around '73 or the year after because her then husband was deployed there and she loved it there! Anyhoos, she told me to stay away from London for the time being because of what's been happening. If there is a need to be there, I should bring my partner along in my purse. HAHAHAHA

YES SHE SAID TO PUT HIM IN MY PURSE. 

Back to Aberdeen tomorrow and pray that I maintain my sanity throughout the year.

Of baby's breath and roses

Ignore the awkward smile and creased hijab but let's take a moment and admire the beauty of the roses and baby's breath. Masya'allah! 

Things were getting too intense these days but receiving these babies was a nice change. Thank you you. 😊