I've let it all out

I finally told someone what I went through all those years. My buddies knew but only parts of it. Surprisingly I opened up to a total stranger; someone who didnt know me during that period. I let it all out.   Why I was afraid of guys when it comes to commitment. What a relief. 

I hated you for putting me through such a  rough time. However, thank you for making me the person I am today. The independent woman who at one point was sooo crushed when you abruptly left. I was left to pick everything up alone. 3 years of being so dependent on someone and followed by another 3 years of being "lead on". I have no one to blame but myself because I should have left ages ago. 

I forgive you for making me turn into a cynic. I forgive you even though you left me alone to answer all those questions and mysteries about us. I forgive you even though it hurts. 

Thank you however for everything that had happened. I am who I am today because of the choices I've made and I am happy about it.